Ropes and Chains

I've always been very turned on by the thought of being tied up during sex. It's a shared fantasy that I often discuss with The Boss but that we have never been sober enough to actually do when we get together. And although I've never broached the subject with The Boyfriend I don't think it's his cup of tea exactly. I did indulge once but it was with an early boyfriend many years ago during which time he tied me up with the school tie I was still wearing 5 days a week and would be for the next two years, neither of us were particularly sexually experienced.

I know exactly why the thought of being tied up is enough to bring me close to orgasm. I relish the idea of being completely at somebody else's mercy. To have to do whatever I am told and unable to escape is thrilling to me. Maybe a gag would be added to the mix and then I wouldn't even be able to speak, only my eyes and the arch of my back would convey my pleasure.

I don't think this is something I would ever want to try with the boyfriend, the sheer naughtiness of it makes me want to do it with somebody just as naughty and exciting. Somebody that would tie me up, do unspeakable things to me and then leave. It is unthinkable that i could have one of my greatest fantasies come true and then afterwards be cuddled and loved by the same person that moments ago had me in their total control. I just need to find someone that can read what I need and give it to me. Then walk away afterwards.

Relationship

Apologies for not writing recently but there isn't much going on. I expected my next post to be all about my newly single life but actually it's completely the opposite. Since I told The Boyfriend I didn't want to be with him anymore our relationship has got so much better. He is making an extra effort and I actually just want to be with him all the time, I'm hoping it will last but I know it might not. I am just taking each day as it comes and enjoying my loving relationship. I haven't even been with the Boss in ages, although we still send cheeky texts when we are drunk together. So I'm not sure when I will be writing next because what is there to say?