Staff Party

Staff party's are always tricky events in my opinion. Too much free alcohol, nothing to do but drink it in a room full of people you would never spend time with if you didn't have to work with them. The last staff party we had ended with me kissing a lesbian and telling my managers wife lots of my sordid little secrets. Although this one was slightly more restrained I still managed to wake up the next day next to the Boss. Although I can't remember the exact details he assures me that nothing much happened, probably because I spent most of my night throwing up...

I turned 20 this week, i think thats supposed to make me a woman but that just doesn't seem right, im definatly not ready to grow up yet. If i stay young i can blame my lose morals on my age, being 20 makes me feel like i should be a little more, well, faithful i suppose.
So, to go completely against this i spent my birthday night out as a 'single girl', I had an argument with the boyfriend in the day and instead of trying to make things up with him I thought fuck him, i'm going to use this as an excuse to do whatever the fuck I want. So I did. It was a brilliant night.

If I can keep it up without the boyfriend finding out then I don't see what the harm really is. This way I get a gorgeous man waiting for me at home and the single life when im out with my friends, what more could I ask for? But then I think, if i really loved and cared for the boyfriend I wouldn't want to do this to him. And now im confused all over again.