Trouble

What a weekend. Had to spend the entirety of Saturday and today working with the Boss. It was fine, we never really get uncomfortable with each other, but Thursday and Friday had been eventful for us both.

His girlfriend found out that he had been secretly seeing another friend of ours, L, (yes, i knew about this and yes i know that makes me even more of a fool than i already seemed to be) and the first person she turned to for help was me. I felt so guilty trying to give her advice without teling her i already knew and knowing that i had been sleeping with him and just that morning had been fantasising about what fun we could have in the childrens play area at work, wondering how i could make it happen. Anyway, she has forgiven him and her, unbelievably fast. No woner he cheats so often when he knows he won't even loose her!

Then today his girlfriend told me that he had sworn on the life of his two year old son that he hadn't been with any other girl apart from L. I should only been feeling relief that he didn't tell her the truth, which would have ruined everything, but instead i was strangely hurt.

This is getting completely ridiculous. Thursday night is one of the biggest nights out of the year around here and almost everyone i know will be there, incluing the boss and his girlfriend. I know i will act like a complete idiot, especially if they are close, which almost never happens but is likely too this week. I wish i could just keep myself away, where is my share of willpower?!